IMPORTANT UPDATE

Hey people,

Okay this post wasn't planned whatsoever. I'm not actually sure who reads my blog/watches my videos, but I do know I have 40 subbies that I couldn't be more thankful for. 

HOWEVER, with that being said, I have decided to make my channel/all my videos private. This is due to the fact that a bunch of people from school have found my videos, and because school is starting, I'm really not comfortable with people judging me.

I know I should stand up for what I love to do, but I want y'all to understand that I'm not really confident enough put myself out there at the moment, especially with my videos. My school is a very tight knit community, where everyone knows everyone.

I will still be keeping this blog, and I will still be posting videos (but I'm going to private them). I originally made my channel/blog for myself. I know it seems weird that I would want to watch videos of myself, but its kind of a personal diary I keep. I think you guys can still view the embedded videos that I have on this blog. I will still embed videos here, but you won't see them on my channel.

The reason why I'm more comfortable with having this blog is because no one really reads it. I mean I read it, but that's about it. I'm pretty sure only 1-2 people will actually read this post. Maybe none. But for the people out there that want to know why I made all my videos private, here you go.

I hope you guys understand. I've never admitted this to anyone before, but the real reason why I stopped wearing shorts to school is because I felt insecure. I mean sure at first I did it because I thought it was too much of a hassle (I was in my "tomboy" phase). But then when people started to define me based on how I dressed, I felt like I was sinking deeper into this irreversible categorization of who I was. I suddenly felt like I was only allowed to dress "manly" because that's how other people identified me as a person. 

This led to the whole I-can-only-dress-how-I-want-on-weekends thing. It's very depressing, and it really annoys me how I care so much about what others think.

So in conclusion, you guys can only view my videos here. I will still be posting videos on YouTube, just they will be private. I will make them public after I'm more comfortable in my own skin. I may be making my covers and cooking stuff public, but definitely not the fashion just yet. But who knows maybe I'm just going to say "f#$% it" tomorrow and make it public again, I don't know.

One thing is certain though; I promise I'll make my channel public again. I'm just waiting for the moment I feel comfortable being who I am. As soon as that happens, I'll make my videos public. I'm aiming to do so before my birthday. But before that, keep watching my videos on here!

Thanks for understanding,

Rennie